Not sure why, but i'm feeling down at the moment. I'm experiencing lots of mixed emotions. Part of me feels this way and another part feels another way.
Old memories are just flooding back into my mind. Happy memories, sad memories, its all coming back to me now. Things which i have never thought about for a very long time due to my busy day schedule recently.
Part of this is due to 'her' cause weird as it seems, i have not talk/chat/sms with her for a very long time. Although i can talk to any person in the world comfortably, i just can't seem to find the right words to start or continue a conversation with her. Maybe it's cause i'm afraid that i will somehow hurt her feelings or maybe it's cause i'm afraid of making the situation really awkward for the both of us until we can't remain as friends anymore. Whatever the reason is, it is fear, mainly the fear of rejection, that is holding me back from doing what i want to.
Oh well, whatever it is i'm hoping to just overcome this fear and go on with life. If i had known it would be so painful, i wouldn't have gotten myself into this situation in the first place. Like someone used to tell me, 'I'm just banging my head against a wall', and now i'm feeling the pain...
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Partial freedom...
This week was a really stressful week (not like it would stress me out anyway). 3 mocks in a row, Paper 3, 4 and 5.
For Paper 3, it was the easiest compared to the rest. Maybe it's because i have accounting basics in high school and it's basically just repeating all of it and more. However, i stumbled on the theory questions in the essay section and left most of it blank. Hopefully i did better for the other questions in order to score an acceptable score for it. I later found out that most if not all of the essay questions were IN the revision kit. That really frustrated me as it is kinda unfair for some cause the revision kit were meant for the EDC and EFC classes in May.
Paper 4 was next after Paper 3. It isn't as hard as i thought it would be though as usual the theory questions gave me a hard time again. Although i didn't do costing in high school, but the practical part is easy to grasp on to and indeed i was able to complete most of the practical questions.
The final paper is Paper 5. It is the hardest paper for me cause it's entirely theory and we'll have to memorize every single thing in the textbook. It's kinda like sejarah style with 5 questions and each question carries 20 marks. I did badly for this paper and only hope to pass it. 10 marks from each question is already enough as i didn't answer all the sections in every question. During the exam, i can even hear Mr Bill scolding someone for leaving blanks while me myself had left 2 whole pages blank due to not knowing what to write.
Saturday was uneventful. Bowling lessons were canceled due to my sister having to do some overtime work at the office. I ended up helping out at the new house, painting the outside wall for an hour. Later, i went home and slept for almost 5 hours (due to the lack of sleep from the few previous nights), woke up then went out for dinner. The night was spend watching football and then onto the comp to play some games.
Its the 'holidays' already for me as i'll be having a 1 month study leave except for a couple of days where i have to go for my revision classes. Maybe i'll just call up a few of the others who are free and probable have lunch with those at the college
For Paper 3, it was the easiest compared to the rest. Maybe it's because i have accounting basics in high school and it's basically just repeating all of it and more. However, i stumbled on the theory questions in the essay section and left most of it blank. Hopefully i did better for the other questions in order to score an acceptable score for it. I later found out that most if not all of the essay questions were IN the revision kit. That really frustrated me as it is kinda unfair for some cause the revision kit were meant for the EDC and EFC classes in May.
Paper 4 was next after Paper 3. It isn't as hard as i thought it would be though as usual the theory questions gave me a hard time again. Although i didn't do costing in high school, but the practical part is easy to grasp on to and indeed i was able to complete most of the practical questions.
The final paper is Paper 5. It is the hardest paper for me cause it's entirely theory and we'll have to memorize every single thing in the textbook. It's kinda like sejarah style with 5 questions and each question carries 20 marks. I did badly for this paper and only hope to pass it. 10 marks from each question is already enough as i didn't answer all the sections in every question. During the exam, i can even hear Mr Bill scolding someone for leaving blanks while me myself had left 2 whole pages blank due to not knowing what to write.
Saturday was uneventful. Bowling lessons were canceled due to my sister having to do some overtime work at the office. I ended up helping out at the new house, painting the outside wall for an hour. Later, i went home and slept for almost 5 hours (due to the lack of sleep from the few previous nights), woke up then went out for dinner. The night was spend watching football and then onto the comp to play some games.
Its the 'holidays' already for me as i'll be having a 1 month study leave except for a couple of days where i have to go for my revision classes. Maybe i'll just call up a few of the others who are free and probable have lunch with those at the college
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Delicious...
Friday
Went to Lobsterman for lunch with my mom, uncle and aunt. The atmosphere there was really nice and quiet. Suitable for a high class business meeting i would say. We're the only customers there at the moment and took our time deciding on how to cook our 800 gm lobster. After what was like 15 mins, we decided on the set dinner menu (it's supposed to be for dinner but they allowed us to order it during lunch hour anyway) which cost almost RM 300++ for just 4 people.
At first my aunt was asking me if i want to order anything else cause from the menu, the set looks really simple. Spinach soup for starters, escargot (it's snails for those of you who don't know what is it) and mussels next, the lobster, fried chicken fillet, roast lamb and a dessert as well as coffee. In the end, it was really filling and the lobster was fantastic. For those of you who just love to eat lobsters, i would recommend you to have a try there.
After lunch, i had to follow my mum to do some errands and complete some of mine as well. I had to go to the bank to settle the loan thing for my car and give them standing instructions to pay for the installment every month from my bank account. That's RM 931.00 every month for 36 months to completely pay for my car.
Saturday
Woke up a little late and got scolding from my mum cause i was late for my bowling lessons in ou. Managed to reach there 10 mins before 1 but apparently my coach was busy in his shop so it started 15 mins late and i was 25 mins early. I finally get to get my own bowling ball as my coach finally asked me if i wanted to get one because i can't use my father's bowling ball. It'll cost another RM 300 (yes i'm a big spender) for the whole set which includes the bowling ball, shoes and the bag to keep them all inside.
And yes, I'm really happy to be getting a bowling ball of my own cause those offered at ou just dont fir my fingers well and are really oily.
I shall get back to watching Blackburn vs MU (blackburn is currently leading by 1 goal though).
Went to Lobsterman for lunch with my mom, uncle and aunt. The atmosphere there was really nice and quiet. Suitable for a high class business meeting i would say. We're the only customers there at the moment and took our time deciding on how to cook our 800 gm lobster. After what was like 15 mins, we decided on the set dinner menu (it's supposed to be for dinner but they allowed us to order it during lunch hour anyway) which cost almost RM 300++ for just 4 people.
At first my aunt was asking me if i want to order anything else cause from the menu, the set looks really simple. Spinach soup for starters, escargot (it's snails for those of you who don't know what is it) and mussels next, the lobster, fried chicken fillet, roast lamb and a dessert as well as coffee. In the end, it was really filling and the lobster was fantastic. For those of you who just love to eat lobsters, i would recommend you to have a try there.
After lunch, i had to follow my mum to do some errands and complete some of mine as well. I had to go to the bank to settle the loan thing for my car and give them standing instructions to pay for the installment every month from my bank account. That's RM 931.00 every month for 36 months to completely pay for my car.
Saturday
Woke up a little late and got scolding from my mum cause i was late for my bowling lessons in ou. Managed to reach there 10 mins before 1 but apparently my coach was busy in his shop so it started 15 mins late and i was 25 mins early. I finally get to get my own bowling ball as my coach finally asked me if i wanted to get one because i can't use my father's bowling ball. It'll cost another RM 300 (yes i'm a big spender) for the whole set which includes the bowling ball, shoes and the bag to keep them all inside.
And yes, I'm really happy to be getting a bowling ball of my own cause those offered at ou just dont fir my fingers well and are really oily.
I shall get back to watching Blackburn vs MU (blackburn is currently leading by 1 goal though).
Friday, April 18, 2008
Hectic...
It has been a really busy week.
After creating this blog, i had a couple of sleepless nights just to complete the mind maps which supposedly had to be passed up by Thursday or I'll be barred from the exams. Night after night i had been spending my time going through the books just to summarize 15-30 pages of notes into 1 single page. However, after spending all the time doing the mind maps, I didn't manage to complete them all before class start (I was left with 3 more) and was forced to complete it during class under Mr. Bills nose although I wasn't the only one doing mind map in class ( Rachel was doing it next to me too!) . I managed to finish it around an hour before class ended and then found out that I wasted my time doing it as Mr. Bill didn't want us to pass it up anyway.
However there are some good news. Progress Test 3 for T5 is canceled and this cheered me up just a little.
Besides that, I've had an eventful Tuesday. Michelle and Rachel just made me realise something important in my life by bombarding me with those personal questions (The ones that got you two excited during T3). I admit that i dwell on those questions even after i got home and i realize that there are indeed many answers to that questions.
Not to mention the DISC profile test that I did on the same day also made me know myself more (Apparently I'm a High-I person). Mr Bill also did some palm reading on my palm while analyzing my DISC profile and concluded that I'm a very emotional person (am I?) who thinks a lot due to the excessive lines on my palm. He also read out Su Wei's personality based on the random pictures she drew on a piece of paper though I'm not sure how accurate he is.
Anyway I'll be having another busy day on Friday although i won't be having any classes at all. I have to have lunch with my uncle and auntie and then later settle some banking stuff like giving standing order to the bank to pay for my car's installment.
Guess I'll get to bed now...
After creating this blog, i had a couple of sleepless nights just to complete the mind maps which supposedly had to be passed up by Thursday or I'll be barred from the exams. Night after night i had been spending my time going through the books just to summarize 15-30 pages of notes into 1 single page. However, after spending all the time doing the mind maps, I didn't manage to complete them all before class start (I was left with 3 more) and was forced to complete it during class under Mr. Bills nose although I wasn't the only one doing mind map in class ( Rachel was doing it next to me too!) . I managed to finish it around an hour before class ended and then found out that I wasted my time doing it as Mr. Bill didn't want us to pass it up anyway.
However there are some good news. Progress Test 3 for T5 is canceled and this cheered me up just a little.
Besides that, I've had an eventful Tuesday. Michelle and Rachel just made me realise something important in my life by bombarding me with those personal questions (The ones that got you two excited during T3). I admit that i dwell on those questions even after i got home and i realize that there are indeed many answers to that questions.
Not to mention the DISC profile test that I did on the same day also made me know myself more (Apparently I'm a High-I person). Mr Bill also did some palm reading on my palm while analyzing my DISC profile and concluded that I'm a very emotional person (am I?) who thinks a lot due to the excessive lines on my palm. He also read out Su Wei's personality based on the random pictures she drew on a piece of paper though I'm not sure how accurate he is.
Anyway I'll be having another busy day on Friday although i won't be having any classes at all. I have to have lunch with my uncle and auntie and then later settle some banking stuff like giving standing order to the bank to pay for my car's installment.
Guess I'll get to bed now...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
An unexpected act...
I can't believe that I finally have a blog of my own. After so many years of having people pestering me to get a blog, I finally got one just to fill up some extra time which I'm having at home everyday. So instead of spending my time aimlessly playing games or flipping through channels on the TV, I might be here storing the memories of my past.
The post on this blog might be recent or it might be from the yesteryears where the memories just suddenly come flooding back into my mind.Also this blog is specifically dedicated to 'someone' (a few of you might know who based on the title).
Ahh and finally i would like to welcome you all to this blog where you can or might possibly understand me better.
Mina Armastan Sind...
The post on this blog might be recent or it might be from the yesteryears where the memories just suddenly come flooding back into my mind.Also this blog is specifically dedicated to 'someone' (a few of you might know who based on the title).
Ahh and finally i would like to welcome you all to this blog where you can or might possibly understand me better.
Mina Armastan Sind...
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