End and beginning...

Finally, its the end of CAT life for me (hopefully) after going through all the exams. Hopefully I'll be able to achieve something this time (world prize maybe?) as i think i did well for some of the papers. One paper I'll be hoping for is T6 (Drafting Financial Statements). I think i got all the computations correct so it is likely that I might be able to score a 100 for this paper. For the others, there is little or even no chance to getting a prize (especially audit) and i only hope to pass them with above average marks.

Since exams are already over, I'll have a couple of decisions to make. Those of which could plot the journey of my life. One of it would be to consider whether to go for the ICAEW offer. If I accept the offer, I'll be having a new beginning for my life next year onwards.

The offer requires me to start work with BDO Binder. This is because they'll be sponsoring my education while I have to work for them until I complete it (which is approx 5 years). Worse case scenario of me accepting the offer would be that I wont have a social life due to the job being a full time job. On the bright side, I'll be able to get the ACA qualification and it will help me in my career in the future (not to mention that I'll be getting paid). I'll have to decide it by this week or else it'll be too late cause the interviews are soon.

The other decisions that I'll have to make cover other aspects of my life, however the only important one would be the ICAEW thingy.

On a side note, I'm having my holidays now until the end of the month. So it is time for me to unwind and prepare to face whatever that's coming for me next year.

Dama Vocal Fest 2008

Went to the Dama Vocal Festival 2008 yesterday with my sister at KL Performing Arts Centre. It was indeed very enjoyable for me. The Dama Orchestra was amazing with their variety of musical instruments from the west as well as the east.

Went for the Songs from Musicals and Crossovers Concert. Upon reaching there, I was surprised to see that i got the front row seat although we only bought the RM 300 tickets. The Dama Orchestra played Beauty and the Beast and Colours of the Wind. Then they had Angel Lee, Phoon Sook Peng and Khoo Hooi Lay to sing other songs along with the Dama Orchestra. Concert started at 8.30 pm and ended at 11.30 pm. The audience there was very reluctant to leave and kept on asking for an encore.

Nevertheless, the it had to end somehow and once a couple of people started to leave, the whole crowd followed suit. I'll be sure to get the tickets whenever they're performing in KL now after experiencing it first hand.

Preparations...

Approximately one more month until my finals which is to be spread across the first two weeks of December. I'll probably be able to pass all, but somehow I just have this feeling of wanting to achieve something.

Hence, I've made a bet with myself. If I manage to exceed my expectations, for whichever paper, I'll do something which I've always wanted to do for a long time but keep on making excuses to delay it. And this will also be my motivation to study for the papers in the whole of November. If all goes well, I'll be keeping my promise probably around the 9th till 16th of February when the results are out. My results will also be my early or belated birthday gift, so i plan to do well for it in order to avoid disappointment.

More tests....

Progress test week is even more hectic as I progress further up in my studies. Unlike the past few years where I usually only studied for the semester exams a couple of hours before the exma, I actually spend almost 5 hours staying back in college revising with my friends. It is a first indeed for me feeling worried even for just an internal test.

T6 started last Friday and it is not too bad. In fact, it is slightly easier than the first one(due to the fewer theory questions) but still I don't think I'll be able to get more than 75 marks. T7 is much more harder than i expected, more theory and confusing questions. I even lost 9 marks cause i didn't know how to write a memorandum to the directors. I answered approximately 67 marks worth of question, so my marks will be really disappointing.

Tomorrow's test would be T8, and I only hope to pass it. Last progress test i managed to scrape a mere 48 marks due to my understanding of the paper (and a past year question which i did before). Not so sure whether I'll be lucky this time. T9 is on Tuesday which means I'll probably stay back again on Monday after the test to study (and probably tutor some of the others) and then it is the Raya holidays.

Can't wait for Raya to come. I'll usually go to the open house of a friend of my dad every year for the Johor Laska. But until then, I still have more auditing procedures to study...

Dreaming for it...

Can't believe how much a dream would mean to me. Just this morning, I had a very unexpected dream and it is still fresh in my memory ever since I woke up. Maybe its cause this dream showed to me how much I wanted it to be in reality or maybe its cause I'm subconsciously hoping that the dream is an indication of what will happen in the near future. Whichever one it is, it certainly got me thinking about it all the time about whether I should act according to it. Now, I am tempted to fall asleep just so that i could have that dream again or even continue on from where it stopped.

And yes, the dream is about that special someone. Someone whose name has been mentioned in this blog a couple of times already.

Mina armastan sind,              ...

Happenings...

There has been so many happenings recently that i wont be mentioning in detail all of them in my post. Firstly, there's the farewell for Sin Seanne who will be leaving for some place in India, then there's the progress test, the barbecue party at my lecturer's place and also an accident on Thursday which involves my friend.

The farewell party for Sin Seanne was kinda like a short distraction for me but nevertheless I'm glad I attended it although I have my audit progress test the very next day. Did a little catching up, took some photos and also found out that Sher Rin is roomates with one of my primary school classmates.

The berbecue party at my lecturer's palce in BU11 was cause my group managed to achieve 100% passing rate for her paper. Met up with a few old faces there namely Michelle, Su Wei and San San. The main purpose of that party was not the barbecue but rather enjoy her Nintendo Wii, Playstation 3 and XBOX 360. Well I have to say i enjoyed my time there playing tennis, boxing and a few other games on her Wii, Gears of War on the XBOX 360 and a racing game on her PS3. Stayed there until my parents called cause some of us were discussing with her about the ICAEW programme offered by BDO Binder and Deloitte.

My progress test marks are satisfactory so far except for T6 and most probably T8. Scored 75 for T7 and 76 for T9 but only managed to scrape 55 for T6 due to the 40 marks theory question which i only scored 7 out of 40! Will be getting T8 back next week but I'll be lucky if I even get above 45.

Just yesterday, a small group of us decided to play badminton after class. We went to a badminton hall in USJ and played until 5.30 pm. We departed after that and on the way out, a motorcycle rammed into the side door of my friends(Nathan) car. The motorcyclist practically flew off his bike and hit the door together with his bike causing the window to break and the door to be dented badly like it was hit by a car. The guy's head was bleeding and suddenly out of nowhere, a bunch of indians appeared (you could guess that the motorcyclist was indian by now) and pressured my friend accusing him for the accident (when it was the motorcyclist's fault cause my friend was already waiting at the junction and the motorcycle rammed into him) as I was in the car behind his with Yoong Ken and saw it wasnt his fault. I went out of the car and walked to see how it was as did Yin Siew, Kee Wan and Jia Yun. Since the guy's head was bleeding we had to take him to the hospital but Nathan don't know the way so Yin Siew had to direct him and I ended up driving her car to the hospital too.

We waited at the hospital's er section for like 2-3 hours with him and then the motorcyclist's guardians finally arrived. Tried to converse politely and civilised but the guardians are not able to do that so we decided to leave and went to have dinner at McDs before making a police report. I only managed to get home at about 11 pm that night cause my sister came and pick me up from the police station.

2 weeks more till Progress Test 2 and 3 more week till Raya and October... Time flies nowadays and I haven't even prepared anything..

Looking back in time...

Last Friday was the SKTS reunion at SS2 Murni. It was nostalgic moment then when I met those whom I spent 6 years with in primary school. Couldn't recognise some of them as it has been more than 5 years since I last saw them. Fortunately, I was able to recognise familiar faces such as Jessica, Wei Guan, Joshua, Gloria and a few others. However, all of them seem to be able to tell who I am with one look (have i not change in the past 5 years?) while I have to think for a long time in order to place the names to the faces. Even worse, when they talked back about the old times during primary school, I couldn't even remember most of the people and happenings. Maybe my memory isn't so good or maybe I subconsciously choose to forget it all cause of an event which happened before the end of school. Nevertheless, it is indeed good to see all of them again and I am looking forward to meeting up in the future.

Before the reunion, I went to an orphanage with my college mates. When we reached there, the person in charge was asking who is the leader and somehow everyone pointed at me (I didn't have a clue about it since i thought Janice was the leader) including Janice and I had to lead them all during the activities. It was a fun filled day with the children there and each of us have to sorta take care of one or more child throughout the session. Although conducting the activities were hard due to the 'guardians' too busy entertaining the children and not listening to the instructions which they are supposed to translate to BM for their respective child, most of the games were carried out successfully.

Classes have been pretty hectic nowadays. Lecturers rushing through syllabus (T9 - Miss Joyce) and there are lecturers who still have time to joke around and do 1 question during class only (T6 - Mr Jana). This week is progress test week. From Wednesday onwards, I'll be having progress test for each paper until Saturday. This means I'll have to work my ass off in order to score an average of at least 75+ marks for each paper. How I miss the times when I just need to revise a little and only aim to pass the papers. Thus, I'll have to get back to my books now...

Holy Shit!!

And i don't mean getting 'beyond godlike' in DotA.

Results was out on Monday and it was indeed a whole new experience for me. Never before have i feared getting back my results as much as this time. It is partly due to the fact that i could be wasting 6 months repeating the paper and not advancing and also due to the lecturers stressing on how much we'll have to pass everything in first attempt as the syllabus will be changing next year.

At around 12.45, my tax lecturer, Miss Joyce, suddenly announced to the class that the results are out after reading a sms. Immediately most of the class got excited and couldn't concentrate. As there is no point trying to teach a bunch of nervous, anxious students, she decided to let us off at 1.30 (1 hour earlier). Quickly, a bunch of us rushed to the library and tried to check our results.

Managed to get hold of a computer with decent internet connection and got to the acca website. There was like 4-5 people crowding around me as i typed in my reg number and password to check for the results. Logged in and....Saw that i PASSED every paper.

Paper Details: T3INT Maint Fin Recs
Result: Pass
Mark: 73
Paper Details: T4 Acc for Costs
Result: Pass
Mark: 75
Paper Details: T5 Mng Pple & Sys
Result: Pass
Mark: 40

I just got enough marks to pass my T5. 1 more mark lost and I'll have to resit the paper again. Thank god.

I am very satisfied with my marks(as i didn't expect to pass all the papers). However, Miss Joyce somehow find my marks very shitty and lectured me in front of the entire class the next day (saying something about me wasting my talent and that i should be getting 80+ marks for T5). I just sat there right in the middle of everyone while she was directing everything towards me. Oh well, guess I'll have to get at least 80 marks for her paper or else I'll have to endure more from her.

Joy and despair....

Well, lets see. I've gotten myself a brand new gaming computer to be place in my room for just a mere RM 4k which includes everything from the monitors right down to the speakers. The specs are not too shabby (4 gig ram and a Nvidia GeForce 8800 GTS 512mb graphic card). Basically this computer allows me to multitask while I play the latest games. And this new machine of mine has been taking up almost all the time I have at home. Perhaps I should cut down on the gaming attitude already and focus on more important things.

Exam results will be coming out on the 18th of August and I'm 70% sure that I'm gonna fail Paper 5. Mentally preparing myself to accept the fact that for the first time I'll be failing in something. I've never experience failure before and I'm not sure how I'll be able to face it. Maybe its time that I've to come face to face with the feeling of failing something as I would be experiencing it sometime later in my life anyway. Better now when I can still learn and try again than later when its all too late to retry it.

By the way, I got hooked onto a Korean band (thanks to Wen Hong) called SNSD or Girl's Generation. Well, their songs are not bad and they all look ok (except for a few who are exceptional), which is why i got attracted to their group. Although I might not be an obssesive fan (like someone i know), I'll probably only download their songs and listen to them occasionally and include them into my playlist. I'll include a MV on one of their songs (Into the new world) at the end of this post.





SNSD - Into the New World MV

Responsibilities...

The upcoming months will most probably be the busiest of the year. Apart from having to study extremely hard and try to get 80+ for my progress tests, I'll also probably have to lead my class (and those who want to join in) to organize some sort of charity fund raising event for the myanmar refugees. Most probably it'll be a carnival of some sort.

August 18 is also gonna be a deciding point during the month. Results are going to be released that day and I'll have to decide (if i fail my Paper 5) whether to take 5 papers this sem and sacrifice most of my social and gaming life or to take 3 or 4 papers only and complete the rest next semester. Most probably I'm gonna go for the first option but that means that I'll have to spend most of my time memorising not only sections in the public ruling and the ISAs, but also management and leadership theories.

Another choice I'll have to make is that whether or not I would want to quit ACCA and take up ICAEW. This year SYUC will be offering those CAT students who did really well for the PTs and MOCK exams a chance to work for either Deloitte Touche Tohmatsu or BDO Binder and study ICAEW part time for 5 years. Well ACCA is indeed recognised globally but if I have the ICAEW qualification, it'll be easier for me to climb up the corporate ladder in the Big 5 accouting firms. Owh and I'll also have a better chance of being promoted to an audit partner in the Big 5 as ICAEW is sorta like the original Chartered Accountants if compared to ACCA. The downside to this is that I'll have to work and study at the same time. And I can only take 1 paper per semester which means I'll take a very long time to finish it up. Any advice on whether I should take it or not?

I'll have 1 month to plan the charity carnival. That includes getting the admin's permission, more people to participate in, decide on how is it going to be carried out and all those things. Plus, I'll have to work with the students from other groups or courses who wants to join in together. Not sure why I've taken the lead to this project.

Another 2 more weeks till results are out. I should be enjoying the time while I can...

Accounts & Taxation...

2nd half of the year is not one bit like the first term. The timetable are somehow very cramped up that all they can manage is a half an hour break between classes for us to have our lunch / snack. Not only that, the classes usually ends late and that will leave us like 10-15 mins only. Fortunately, some lecturers are kind enough to give another half an hour break during the class which we of course took this opportunity to dash outside to eat.

Besides that, I finally have some homework to do after half a year period of no homework and assignment. Moral studies classes are gonna start this week (on a Saturday!) and that means I'll probably be having assignments to do too. I've been coping with the papers better than i expected, at least I'm able to answer the questions the lecturers throw at me. I am learning to prepare financial statements and accounts for companies for my financial accounting class, learning to do standard costing for managerial accounting class, learning how to compute individual income tax (taxable income) for tax and not sure what I'm learning for audit.

Guess i better get back to my accounts work now...

Worn out....

Its been a while since my last post. This is mostly due to the inefficiency of Streamyx who took almost a whole week to transfer the internet connection from the old house to the new one. Ah and i just recently moved into my new house and am still getting used to it.

College started about a week ago. This term, I'll be taking 4 papers as well as an additional one which i have to resit IF i fail it. Well, this means that I will have to spend more time in front of the notes than i usually do. Financial accounting and Managerial accounting isn't that hard due to the fact that I have done the basics twice in CAT already. The other two papers are relatively new to me and will involve a lot of theory and application work. The Audit paper will require me to spend more nights trying to memorize every single fact about auditing when i don't have an idea on how auditing works. I mean, how can you teach something which only involves practical work on paper and have an exam on it. The other paper, which is Taxation, is much more enjoyable. At least there's more computation involve and less theory. Plus, the lecturer is rather strict and attractive.

Classes this term starts and ends at a rather odd time. On Mondays to Wednesdays, classes starts at 11.30 am and ends at 6 pm. On Thursdays, it starts at 8 am and ends at 2.30pm. Oh and i have Fridays off. There's no lunch break for us in between classes, so we wont be having our Dota time anymore. Classes are getting more and more exhaustive nowadays. This is because we will have to give our full attention during classes (especially during Audit and Tax) or risk being confused for the rest of the semester.

About the new house, well you can ask Sher Rin about it. I'm sure she has lots to talk about since she has probably seen it more often than me when it was being constructed. I'll probably invite a few people over in August (a few cause my parents wouldn't like it if I have too many people in the house) just to hang out.

Emerald....

Somehow, I just got attracted to this colour/gem. Maybe it's cause I'm still full of hope, still hoping that it will all change. The emerald city above shows what i am longing for which is hope as well as love. Just imagine how beautiful it will be to have an entire city lighted up in emerald.


It's been a quiet week, everyday was spent helping out with the finishing touches at the site of the new house. Maybe next week I'll have more free time on my hands, a week before classes starts again

Worries...

Well the holidays have already started, so I'm practically free everyday to go out (which i did only on one day). I won't be recapping the exams as it will only cause me to worry more and more about it. Instead I'll just highlight the interesting and exceptional events.

June 9th
Was supposed to go down to Klang again for another Bak Kut Teh brunch. Unfortunately, i wasn't feeling well in the morning (migraine and a bad cough) so i skipped it instead. The afternoon was spent going to furniture malls with my mom to try and find some furniture and possibly a bar counter for my room and house. Spend almost 6 hours going from one place to another. The last stop was the furniture mall near the BU area (not sure what its called). I was inquiring about the bar counter which they sold there when i noticed someone entered the shop as well. Didn't get a good look at first but then later saw Sab's mom and then i recognize the back of the girl who was just sitting on the couch in front of me. Surprise, surprise, it was indeed Sab and I can't believe she didn't even see me even though i was standing there all the while.

June 10th
Had an outing with Sher Rin, Sab, Wani, Adeline, Kalkena, Dina and Dinesh. We practically did nothing other than talk for the whole time we were in 1u. Spent about 3-4 hours (not sure) in Italiannes for a really long lunch. Then later headed to MPH to get some books (I bought the entire Age of Five trilogy) and to talk around the cookbook section. After that we stopped by Secret Recipe to get cakes and continue our talking. Finally we made our way to check out some movies (old and new).

June 14th
The gathering at Sab's house for dinner was simply awesome. The food and the company is nice. After dinner, we sat and chit-chat for a while and then decided to head to McDs to continue talking. We did nothing much other than talking and relieving old memories while sharing more recent stories. As usual, i just sat at one corner and listen to the stories being told around. Feels like we've drifted apart and it's cause I've not been making effort to keep in touch with any one of them.

June 16th
Whole day was spent out looking for a study desk for my room. After a long time of choosing, i finally settled for one that costs almost RM 4000. But i feel that it is worth every cent as i might be using it for a long time. Other than that, I'm still looking for the bar counter and now a bookcase that matches the colour of my desk.


Well up to now I still haven't decided on what to do with my emotions yet. Maybe I'll just find someone to consult to and then decide about it after I've moved in to the new house. For now, there's plenty more to worry about other than that issue and there have been a couple of unpleasant events which had happened recently so i might let it be for now since it's still in a mess.

5 more days...

Its finally exam week. I'm still surfing the net and not studying as hard as those who are about to sit for the same papers as me. Oh well, looks like I'll just have to cramp everything into my head in a day or two. Exams are just around the corner but somehow i still found time to go out and enjoy myself.

Drove down to Klang on Wednesday for some Bak Kut Teh with Michelle and co. It was indeed an interesting trip. I left home at 10.30 am and made my way down to PJ Old Town to pick up Hoong Kin. After picking him up, I backtracked to State and made my way to Federal Highway from there. Journey to Klang was uneventful as it was just a straight road all the way to Klang toll. After the Klang toll, we were supposed to follow Ellie's directions to her house which i printed on a piece of paper for Hoong Kin to read it out to me. Unfortunately, he is a slow reader so i had to make many last minutes turn or jerks to the correct lane. Took an hour to reach there with his help (i think i can get there faster if someone else was with me) , wait for 5 mins or so for Michelle to arrive then made our way to the shop. After lunch, we headed to Aeon Bukit Tinggi to 'study' and get Mun Hoe's gift. Spend a few hours there then went back to Michelle's house where there's a Pasar Malam and we walked one round there (not sure why we went there in the first pace). Left Klang at 6.30, dropped Hoong Kin off at 7 and reached home at 7.30 (took less time going back then getting there due to me maintaining a 90-100 km/h).

Friday was Mun Hoe's birthday party. It was a barbecue party but apparently almost everyone there including Mun Hoe don't have any experience. Most of the food were burnt, and the charcoal even exploded once, tossing all the chicken into the air and garden. After the party was almost over, we had a few glasses of Martel and red wine with a game of cards. Left the party at 11.30 and headed to A&W for supper.

Until now I'm still trying to get into the mood to study. Funny that this is supposed to be a major exam and yet I'm taking it so lightly. Oh well, time to hit the books now i guess, or maybe the bed. (I'll do the tag some other time Ade)

Hanging on...

My emotions are failing me again. I'm feeling like I'm being pulled into 2 parts. One part of me want to message her, a chat however short will already be satisfactory. However, my other part just don't know what to talk about. Somehow i just can't find the words or link it together to start up a conversation with her. That's why my other part is holding me back, forcing me to decide on what to talk about before even saying hello.

I don't know why this is happening to me. It might not seem as the Weng Hoe you all know who is talkative and sociable. I am able to talk to anyone i wanted to but somehow, just somehow she is the only one who is able to make me speechless and I will sometimes just forget what to say when i see her. People who knows me will think that i don't know the meaning of the word 'shy'. However, I might be experiencing it at this particular moment. Maybe I'm just too shy to talk to her.

I've been imagining this situation in my mind over and over again, predicting countless outcomes and reactions as well as what to say. I know some of you out there will think that I'm pretty stupid to be doing so much prep work just to talk to someone but it's just the way i work. Also I've been promising to myself that I would pick up the courage and talk to her even planning out what to say in order to keep the conversation going. But when the time comes, I would just suddenly forget every single thing like how it is right now.

Maybe it's because i haven't learn to open up to people yet due to some events in my past. It has not only made me more conservative but also more secretive to my friends. Think about it, how many of you can honestly say that you know about me, my lifestyle, my habits, what i like most, my hobbies and most of all my past. Most people might see me as a hypocrite if they realize how i am hiding behind a 'mask' deceiving everyone, but this is not what i want and it is because of my past. I've been hiding behind a 'mask' since secondary school and this 'mask' has grown onto me. Also, i don't only hide behind one 'mask' as i am constantly changing it due to the different people i meet. Its been so long since i last look back at my 'original face' and this has cause me to almost forget who i really am. And it's these 'mask' which i have to remove in order to be myself again can't be remove without help.

There are only 3 people in this world (other than her) who can help me now. Those 3 are the people whom i met at different stages of my life and they've been giving me support whether or not they realize it. 2 of them are my closest friends, friends who has earned partial trust from me. One of them is just a friend whom can somehow make me open up a little more while talking to me. These 3 may not realize but they're making a huge impact in my life, positively that is. The funny thing is, these 3 people are all girls.

Enough ranting. I guess I'll just hit the bed and try to forget about it as the reason I'm posting this right now is because she's online and i just can't talk to her.

A while more...

It's been a while since i last blogged. Well i can say that i've been busy 'studying' or rather trying to study for my majors which will be on the 4th, 5th and 6th of June. But still i've not scrapped my old habit of studying at the last moment (usually a day or two before the exam dates) and it has made studying a really tough task.

Saturday

Had to pull myself out of bed early in the morning as i had to reach Pavillion with my sis and bro by 10.30 am for a special screening of Prince Caspian (not really special but it was for donation). Woke up late at around 8.50 and that gives me around 15-20 mins to get ready and to fill up my stomach at the same time. Reached Pavillion at 10 am cause i (we actually) skipped breakfast but i managed to order a 1901 hotdog to be delivered to my seat in the hall during the movie. I got to say the movie is indeed nice. It is not what i expected and i enjoyed myself throughout the movie. After the movie, we headed to Nandos to have lunch. Then later my sister decided to go on her shopping spree so i departed on my own and walked around the mall. Met ser siang and may ee there who were waiting to go watch the same movie. Finally, after an hour my sister called and said we were going home. Since we didnt drive there, we walked all the way to the monorail station at Lot 10, took it to KL Sentral and then LRT back to KJ.

Reached home at about 4.40-5.00 feeling really exhausted from all the walking.I gave up trying to study for the day and sat down in front of the computer. At about 6.30 my dad called back and told us to postpone the reservation for the Japanese Buffet at Saisaki Suishi to 7.30 instead of canceling it. So we rushed all the way back to KL again to Wisma OUG 2 which is just nearby Pavillion. The food there is ok. They had a large selection of food, not only Japanese but also Chinese and Western food. However, the environment there is a little too noisy and not like any other buffet places i've been to.


Sunday

Did some studying today (only Chapter 1 and 2 of T5) but spent most of the time sleeping. The only time i was awake in the afternoon was to watch Wind Chill and for lunch. Slept all the time until the evening when i woke up to study and then later dinner.

After dinner, we headed to Giant to grab some groceries and ended up spending almost 2 hours there. Came back home, unpacked the groceries and then watched the Life and Death of Bobby Z which is a pretty pointless show in my opinion.

Uneventful...

An uneventful week just passed by. Other than a small gathering with some of the old 'cengal gang' on 30th night, i've been staying home every other day until monday.

30th (Wednesday)

The small gathering with the others went pretty well. Somehow i was the first to reach there (i was even earlier than ethan who organize it) though it was around 7.40 already. We were suppose to meet outside cineleisure at 7.30 but as usual most of them are late. Only had to wait for a couple of minutes till Ethan arrived. We then had to wait for the other 7 who were coming. Kar May, Chiaw Yee and Khei Sze were next to arrive and then the 5 of us adjourned to Laundry to get a plate of calamaris to munch while waiting for the others. Kit Weng joined us a while later and next it was Sab. Finally, Meng Leong and Wei Kit arrived and we left Laundry to search for a place to eat. We finally settled on 1920 and got the waiters/waitresses there to arrange the couches for us to sit. We sat, ate, talked and joked about there and left at 10

1st (Thursday)

Woke up late (really late at 10 am) when i was suppose to play football with Wei Kit and co. This was due to me staying up unti 5.30 am watching Liverpool v Chelsea. I wanted to continue staying awake until it was time to go but somehow i fell asleep in front of the TV without my alarm clock. Anyway, sorry for not being able to come for that football session guys.

5th & 6th (Monday & Tuesday)

It was EDC/EFC session for T3. The entire lecture hall was packed with students from 3 groups. Honestly, I never did learn or revise anything while attending those classes. All i did most of the time was sleep and talk. Monday was pretty uneventful as i slept 80% of the time. Tuesday was a little different. Us guys ended up sitting at the last and second last row which allowed us a lot of freedom to do anything we wanted to.

Depressed...

Not sure why, but i'm feeling down at the moment. I'm experiencing lots of mixed emotions. Part of me feels this way and another part feels another way.

Old memories are just flooding back into my mind. Happy memories, sad memories, its all coming back to me now. Things which i have never thought about for a very long time due to my busy day schedule recently.

Part of this is due to 'her' cause weird as it seems, i have not talk/chat/sms with her for a very long time. Although i can talk to any person in the world comfortably, i just can't seem to find the right words to start or continue a conversation with her. Maybe it's cause i'm afraid that i will somehow hurt her feelings or maybe it's cause i'm afraid of making the situation really awkward for the both of us until we can't remain as friends anymore. Whatever the reason is, it is fear, mainly the fear of rejection, that is holding me back from doing what i want to.

Oh well, whatever it is i'm hoping to just overcome this fear and go on with life. If i had known it would be so painful, i wouldn't have gotten myself into this situation in the first place. Like someone used to tell me, 'I'm just banging my head against a wall', and now i'm feeling the pain...

Partial freedom...

This week was a really stressful week (not like it would stress me out anyway). 3 mocks in a row, Paper 3, 4 and 5.

For Paper 3, it was the easiest compared to the rest. Maybe it's because i have accounting basics in high school and it's basically just repeating all of it and more. However, i stumbled on the theory questions in the essay section and left most of it blank. Hopefully i did better for the other questions in order to score an acceptable score for it. I later found out that most if not all of the essay questions were IN the revision kit. That really frustrated me as it is kinda unfair for some cause the revision kit were meant for the EDC and EFC classes in May.

Paper 4 was next after Paper 3. It isn't as hard as i thought it would be though as usual the theory questions gave me a hard time again. Although i didn't do costing in high school, but the practical part is easy to grasp on to and indeed i was able to complete most of the practical questions.

The final paper is Paper 5. It is the hardest paper for me cause it's entirely theory and we'll have to memorize every single thing in the textbook. It's kinda like sejarah style with 5 questions and each question carries 20 marks. I did badly for this paper and only hope to pass it. 10 marks from each question is already enough as i didn't answer all the sections in every question. During the exam, i can even hear Mr Bill scolding someone for leaving blanks while me myself had left 2 whole pages blank due to not knowing what to write.

Saturday was uneventful. Bowling lessons were canceled due to my sister having to do some overtime work at the office. I ended up helping out at the new house, painting the outside wall for an hour. Later, i went home and slept for almost 5 hours (due to the lack of sleep from the few previous nights), woke up then went out for dinner. The night was spend watching football and then onto the comp to play some games.

Its the 'holidays' already for me as i'll be having a 1 month study leave except for a couple of days where i have to go for my revision classes. Maybe i'll just call up a few of the others who are free and probable have lunch with those at the college

Delicious...

Friday

Went to Lobsterman for lunch with my mom, uncle and aunt. The atmosphere there was really nice and quiet. Suitable for a high class business meeting i would say. We're the only customers there at the moment and took our time deciding on how to cook our 800 gm lobster. After what was like 15 mins, we decided on the set dinner menu (it's supposed to be for dinner but they allowed us to order it during lunch hour anyway) which cost almost RM 300++ for just 4 people.

At first my aunt was asking me if i want to order anything else cause from the menu, the set looks really simple. Spinach soup for starters, escargot (it's snails for those of you who don't know what is it) and mussels next, the lobster, fried chicken fillet, roast lamb and a dessert as well as coffee. In the end, it was really filling and the lobster was fantastic. For those of you who just love to eat lobsters, i would recommend you to have a try there.

After lunch, i had to follow my mum to do some errands and complete some of mine as well. I had to go to the bank to settle the loan thing for my car and give them standing instructions to pay for the installment every month from my bank account. That's RM 931.00 every month for 36 months to completely pay for my car.


Saturday

Woke up a little late and got scolding from my mum cause i was late for my bowling lessons in ou. Managed to reach there 10 mins before 1 but apparently my coach was busy in his shop so it started 15 mins late and i was 25 mins early. I finally get to get my own bowling ball as my coach finally asked me if i wanted to get one because i can't use my father's bowling ball. It'll cost another RM 300 (yes i'm a big spender) for the whole set which includes the bowling ball, shoes and the bag to keep them all inside.
And yes, I'm really happy to be getting a bowling ball of my own cause those offered at ou just dont fir my fingers well and are really oily.

I shall get back to watching Blackburn vs MU (blackburn is currently leading by 1 goal though).

Hectic...

It has been a really busy week.

After creating this blog, i had a couple of sleepless nights just to complete the mind maps which supposedly had to be passed up by Thursday or I'll be barred from the exams. Night after night i had been spending my time going through the books just to summarize 15-30 pages of notes into 1 single page. However, after spending all the time doing the mind maps, I didn't manage to complete them all before class start (I was left with 3 more) and was forced to complete it during class under Mr. Bills nose although I wasn't the only one doing mind map in class ( Rachel was doing it next to me too!) . I managed to finish it around an hour before class ended and then found out that I wasted my time doing it as Mr. Bill didn't want us to pass it up anyway.

However there are some good news. Progress Test 3 for T5 is canceled and this cheered me up just a little.

Besides that, I've had an eventful Tuesday. Michelle and Rachel just made me realise something important in my life by bombarding me with those personal questions (The ones that got you two excited during T3). I admit that i dwell on those questions even after i got home and i realize that there are indeed many answers to that questions.

Not to mention the DISC profile test that I did on the same day also made me know myself more (Apparently I'm a High-I person). Mr Bill also did some palm reading on my palm while analyzing my DISC profile and concluded that I'm a very emotional person (am I?) who thinks a lot due to the excessive lines on my palm. He also read out Su Wei's personality based on the random pictures she drew on a piece of paper though I'm not sure how accurate he is.

Anyway I'll be having another busy day on Friday although i won't be having any classes at all. I have to have lunch with my uncle and auntie and then later settle some banking stuff like giving standing order to the bank to pay for my car's installment.

Guess I'll get to bed now...

An unexpected act...

I can't believe that I finally have a blog of my own. After so many years of having people pestering me to get a blog, I finally got one just to fill up some extra time which I'm having at home everyday. So instead of spending my time aimlessly playing games or flipping through channels on the TV, I might be here storing the memories of my past.

The post on this blog might be recent or it might be from the yesteryears where the memories just suddenly come flooding back into my mind.Also this blog is specifically dedicated to 'someone' (a few of you might know who based on the title).

Ahh and finally i would like to welcome you all to this blog where you can or might possibly understand me better.

Mina Armastan Sind...